2015 was without a doubt the best adult year of my life thus far. If you haven’t read “My confidence journey” (http://www.thebrookebook.com/2015/10/my-self-confidence-journey/) you wouldn’t know that this year was when I really came into myself. I gained so much confidence and just began a better version of myself quite honestly.
So, what did I do in 2015?
It’s no hidden secret that I began the year by heading off to Europe for 4 months. Europe changed my outlook on life drastically. I was in Florence, Italy but I was lucky enough to travel to England, Germany, The Netherlands, Spain, Hungary, Austria, France, Czech Republic, Malta and Monaco. How insanely amazing is that? In Europe, I pushed my limits, met interesting people and learned about different cultures. It was truely the most amazing 4 months of my life and I would not trade it for anything. This trip made me realize how important travel is for me, how good it makes me feel to see new places and experience new life. From this trip on, I decided to make traveling a priority for the rest of my life. Save money for travel and not for as many material items.
Coming home was tough for a bit, I honestly was very down for about 2 weeks after my return to the states. It was something that was hard to talk about to other people because they honestly have no pity/don’t understand. It wasn’t that I wasn’t happy at home or that I was complaining because I know I had no reason to be, but it was more the fact that I felt like I had left part of me in Italy. To some that may not make sense, but I think most people who went abroad would understand–reverse culture shock. I came home and began my summer internship with Hub Recruiting in Bedford, MA where I took on the role of ‘Social Media Coordinator’. This internship was pretty challenging in ways but I learned so much and actually ended up loving and being super grateful for the experience. This isn’t a cover letter so I am not going to go into crazy detail about everything I learned but it was just a really good job to have for the summer. The people I worked with were excellent and I really grew a lot as a professional. Besides work, the summer was excellent. Between the beach trips and country concerts, I had my 21st birthday, which also happened to be the best birthday I have ever had. A bunch of my friends and I got hotel rooms in Boston and went out. I had all my best friends around me (minus 3 sadly) and I couldn’t have been happier. There were some plot twists in the night but I had an AMAZING time (and I remember most of it too so that’s a plus hehe).
Going back to school after the summer was a bit strange to me, I almost felt like I didn’t belong at UMass, which was a crazy sensation. I felt like I was visiting. I got over that and had a pretty sweet semester. Throughout the semester I basically had one bad month but that was about it. Basically the semester was filled with going out a lot and having fun but getting my work done too. I finished the semester strong with a 3.7 GPA and I honestly am surprised that I didn’t cry, I was so happy. I took some really hard classes and worked my butt off and it all paid off. Throughout this semester I figured out what I want to do after graduation and I also have begun brainstorming a very possible business idea so I am very happy with myself. I also was able to book my spring break trip to Punta Cana with 9 of my best friends as well as fly down to South Carolina for a weekend to visit my roommates from Italy at USC.
GO TWENTY-FIFTEEN, you’re going to be a hard one to beat.
What did I learn in 2015?
2015 taught me so much about myself, about other people and just about how I want to live my life. It really was a year of growing for me and I am so grateful for it. Although, it is hard because in this process of growing, I feel like I’ve began to outgrow a lot too. I have been realizing lately how many people I just don’t care to make a priority in my life. Maybe it sounds stuck up of me but I feel like I’ve grown up past so many of my friends at this point in our life and I am not trying to say I’m always perfect and right or anything of that sort, just that I feel like I can so easily see characteristics in people now that I don’t want to surround myself with. It’s becoming very clear to me people who aren’t really impacting my life positively anymore, not that these people are bad people just that they aren’t going to be in my life forever for different reasons. It’s kind of sad but that’s life. It’s becoming clear who are the people that I will stay friends with after college, which friends really care about our friendship and which friends want to see and help their friends grow. I’ve realized that, my best friends, I want more than anything to see them be as successful and happy as they possibly can be but I know not everyone feels the same way. It comes down to; some people are just short term. That’s okay because every single person I’ve met has impacted me in one way or another. I don’t regret friendships but I definitely am beginning to outgrow some. You can’t stay friends with everyone forever and that’s okay.
2015 was really the year I felt like I was taking steps to be the kind of person I want to be, the kind of person I would want to meet and have a conversation with. I’m not perfect and believe me, I made my fair share of mistakes this past year but that’s part of growing up. I found so much motivation this past year and a lot of that stemmed from the fact that I don’t know why but I feel like I grew a voice this year. My opinions and my desire to learn more about controversial issues and have good conversations about them sky rocketed. I want to know more about what’s going on in our world, I want to hear others opinions and I want mine to be heard. It’s really cool actually, I like that I’ve begun to care more about what’s going on around me. This leads me into self-motivation. This is something that I think has lately impacted me so much. This year I really discovered how to personally motivate myself. Anyone who knows me well knows that I have pretty damn specific dreams and also that I do not just wait for opportunities to come my way. This has not always been a strong characteristic of mine but this past year has been different. I don’t wait for opportunities anymore and I don’t just hope I am going to end up where I want. I take chances and steps towards what I want now because it’s my future and if I want it to be bright I have to work my butt off to get there. This change has honestly made me so much more optimistic about life. I am now excited for the future and what it has in store for me.