Just some thoughts #4

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I am currently sitting in the customer lounge at the Honda dealership waiting for them to take care of the recall on my car. I have to say, the lounge here is actually pretty nice but sitting here makes me want to buy a brand new sparkly car….with the $200 I have to my name that is. I really want to listen to music while I write this but I am an idiot and left my headphones in my car, I guess I could go get them because they aren’t even working on my car yet but that seems like a hassle and I think I can live without music for a little bit…maybe.

Yesterday I published a blog post titled “To the guy who led me on,”. It was honestly a very hard article for me to post because it was really hard for me to write. It took me about a week to get it just right. I didn’t want it to be too personal but I couldn’t help making it a bit personal. I’m happy with how it came out but it’s just kind of a sad topic so it does make me sad that THIS was my most popular post of my entire blog career, next to my self confidence journey. It’s a weird sensation because the guy this post was about will most likely never read it. That being said, I don’t even know if I would want him to. Part of me really hopes he regrets what happened but a part of me thinks he doesn’t at all. A little insight, I did confront him about leading me on, he told me he’s just been traveling a lot for work and that he was sorry he treated me like that. I know that’s not the reason and I honestly don’t think he’s that sorry. If you knew him, you’d understand.

A little unrelated but also kind of related, I’m excited to begin the new year. I know a lot of people think it’s silly to take the new year to seriously and be like “New Year new me” and sometimes I can understand that but I think beginning a new year is the perfect excuse to start fresh for yourself. Don’t get me wrong, I get that you can do that any time of the year but I don’t know I think it seems like the perfect time. I just want to leave negative people in 2015. This is my life and I choose if I want to spend 2016 miserable or if I want to have an awesome year, even better than 2015. I just want 2016 to be the year of me. I want to focus on growing this year and really honestly be selfish. Not saying I want to completely be a bitch to everyone when I say that, I mean I just want to stop worrying about what others think of me and really grow into the person I want to be, the friend I want to be, the sibling and daughter I want to be, the professional I want to be and if it happens, the girl friend I want to be. 2016 is going to contain a lot of changes and I feel like I have to be in a good place in my life in order to achieve the things I want. I don’t know if that made any sense but I just want to be super happy this year.

Another thing, my blog…this thing you’re reading right now. I am more into it than I’ve been in a while. All of a sudden I just love blogging so much more than I ever have. This past couple months I have just found so much therapy and joy in blogging and the blogging community and I am so excited to take thebrookebook to the next level. I have really high hopes for it this year and I hope you’re just as excited as I am about it. I’ve been blogging for 2 years now and I feel like it’s always just been a side hobby for me (not that there is anything wrong with that) but I want to start prioritizing it a lot more now.

Oh my gosh, I almost just watched an accident happen on the off ramp. Wow. That was frightening.

Speaking of driving, why aren’t they working on my car yet. HELLLLOOOO i’ve almost done an entire blog post in the time I’ve been here. It’s okay though, grace should be here soon to pick me up and hang out while they work on my car. Oh wait I think I see her. She’s calling me.

It’s her.

BYE

 

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