Have you ever had a experience that completely changed your point of view on the way you’re living your life? I think I can speak for most people who went abroad and say it’s not that I am trying to brag or rub it in your face but it is actually the complete opposite. I wish you were able to experience it and I want you to understand why. I honestly think about my time in Europe every single day and I have to stop myself multiple times a day from word vomit, “When I was in Europe..”, because I know not everyone cares.
I can wholeheartedly say that being in Europe for those 4 beautiful months was the most amazing thing I have ever experienced. Not to say I wasn’t happy before I went, but I have never been so genuinely happy… ever. Everything just seemed to work in those 4 months. Not going to lie to you and say I liked everyone I met or didn’t ever feel down sometimes, but I learned so many lessons that let me just brush those off and continue on with my happiness. Clash with someone else’s personality? Okay, I won’t hang out with them. Having a bad day? Go for a walk, get gelato, hang out with my friends, eat good food, plan a trip or just realize how lucky I am and everything was better. Worries felt like they went right out the window. My biggest worry was whether or not I’d have enough money to book a trip… but then we would stop worrying about it and book it anyways because dare I say… yolo.
Suddenly, things that were so thought consuming to me back home, seemed so unimportant. Things like my outfit and how my hair looked weren’t important when exploring around a new country. I didn’t care that I couldn’t text or check social media for a hours and hours because of the lack of WiFi and it was such a nice change. Even though I did enjoy taking a lot of pictures, I was content with the fact that a camera can’t quite capture everything and you just need to enjoy the moment.
The people I met throughout the 4 months was the cherry on top. You meet people that can absolutely change your life. You learn what kind of people you want to surround yourself with because it all comes down to the fact that, you are spending 4 months living the dream and you don’t want to spend it with people who don’t make you happy all the time. Isn’t that something we should listen to in our everyday lives too? Why be around people who aren’t helping you grow as a person, why be around people who make you feel bad about yourself and why why why be with people you don’t have the absolute best time with. My friends and I had fun sitting at the kitchen table together talking about everything and absolutely nothing at the same exact time and that is how it should be. Those are the kinds of people we all need to surround ourselves with. Because of being in Europe, I now have best friends in South Carolina, Arizona and California. So, friends from back home… you’ll probably hear this a lot: “Taylor, Victoria and Megan… my roommates from Italy blah blah blah” or “Shannon and Jessie… my good friends that I met in Italy blah blah blah” or “Zach… my friend from Italy that also goes to UMass but is from California blah blah blah” (only to name a few). I have so many amazing memories with them, so how am I not supposed to talk about them on the daily? *water country water country water country*
Because of being abroad, I discovered a passion for traveling as you may have imagined. It’s SO much more than just wanting to seeing fun new places though. Having the opportunity to travel made me realize so much about my life. I am such a small little speck in this world. It’s pretty insane to think about. This little speck has so much to see and so much to learn, things that can only be learned by opening myself up to new experiences. Being back in the states I crave to be somewhere that is out of my comfort zone and to immerse myself in a new culture whether it is in a country I’ve never been to or a state I’ve never been to. On the other hand though, it ALSO made me realize that I crave the exact opposite as well. I’ve lived in Massachusetts for my entire life, but I still have to much to see, so much to explore. I just want new… all the time. I am so young and honestly, the idea of settling down when I am older scares me so much, so I want to embrace being young and having these chances and go for it all in. Being abroad made me discover that I need this in my life. I was the happiest I have ever been while in Europe, so why should I give that up.
I have so much life to live and so many opportunities. It made me realize what is important to me. It made me realize what I deserve. Looking back, it almost seems unreal. It is actually hard to look back at my pictures because it is really difficult for me to accept that it is over. It feels like I broke up with Europe but now I am just that clingy ex that still loves you and thinks about you all the time.
So, yes I will bring up my time across the pond probably a couple thousand times more…
can you blame me?
And to be honest, there is probably even more study abroad posts coming because I have so many ideas.
Until next time,